Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Levi's 1 year birthday & 12 month progression



It's about time, sheesh, almost a full month later, but we did have a special celebration for Levi's first birthday.  I mean of course we did, we do 1st birthday big, I mean it's a pretty big deal that we kept him alive for 12 months, especially in this family, so we really wanted to celebrate life!

Levi is my only official summer birthday (barely sneaking it in)  So of course we had to do the party a the pool!  We are fortunate enough to have a neighborhood pool we can use, and it makes for an easy an entertaining party, no games not hod podge, just got swim, eat food and eat cake, easy!


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Levi eating his cupcake was about as exciting as watching a person sit there, because that is exactly what he did. He just doesn't love sweets a ton
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Can't believe how fast you grew up buddy.  The first and the last photo amaze me.

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Levi, You warm my heart, make me smile, and help bring me joy each day. 
 I never ever knew I could love a little man so much.  
Thank you for hugging and loving me big every day!  
My little head banging, cat food eating, toilet boil playing, nose scrunching, mama loving, master destroyer.....I love you so much!DSC_0884 

and If you didn't see Levi's one year video here it is!

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

I can smell it



It's in the wind
and the smell outside
and it's in the slightest way the sun has changed

I enjoy the Fall season, but slightly cringe at the start of it, only because it means those hot summer days are over and those bone chilling days are around the corner.   I might say Fall is my favorite season if it didn't precede Winter, I just might.

This Fall is a very different season for me.  
The season of only having 2 kids at home most of the day.  A boy and a girl. 
 Seriously, who would have thought I would have that dynamic?  And now that I'm not being called by the school nurse daily I'm trying to enjoy these 2 littles and soaking up their moments and doing some special things with them.

We got to enjoy a  day at the Happy Apple Farm with some friends, it was like a vacation with only 2 kids, I mean seriously 2 kids, who would have ever thought I would consider that a vacation?!?

one of my favorite pics of Levi, ever, I mean those Overalls on a farm...... melting
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My Friend Ashley is the best, she seriously treats and loves me kids like they are her own, she picks them up when they cry and comforts them when they are upset, love her.
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There is so much great berry picking at the Apple Farm!
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It's probably a little more fun to actually be involved in the picking...
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Sarah's BFF, they could both live off of berries and fruit.  One day I caught them sitting by each other with the fridge door wide open gorging berries together.
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Trust me, she loved it! 
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my boy.... again melting
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Check out the flying Apple
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Sarah in a nutshell, "delightful" 
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 Brother and sister. their relationship is so sweet , I love this photo bc it shows something I never pictured



To be honest the first time I went to the Happy Apple Farm I was unimpressed and just compared it to the magnificent Apple Hill in Northern California.  But this time..... I just really enjoyed it, it was beautiful, simple and perfect! I even want to go back!

If the pool was open, I'm pretty sure Fall would be my favorite season

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

I might die before he finishes


Many of you may already know this, but Brett is studying to become a CPA, you know one of those fancy accountants.  It's not just one ridiculously difficult test, but 4, yep 4 insanely difficult tests!!!! People this is not joke, it's harder than the BAR exam.   Why don't we just throw in that Brett is working a full time job, has a family with 4 small children, and one was in the PICU for 3 days, 3 days prior to his first exam!!  Lets just add in some more obstacles, maybe they should have Brett take his test blindfolded, with one arm behind his back, or skipping a jump rope while he's at it.

But really, it's kind of insane.  He is doing 4 incredibly difficult and expensive study courses before each exam, which means I see him for a total 30 minutes a week.  I mean, I might actually die before he finishes because I'm going crazy!  Honestly, I don't know how single moms do it or military wives, I have the utmost respect for you because I NEED my husband, I'm so pathetic without him. That is one reason I have been blogging less, there is just no time at night for me to even breathe.  I pack lunches, count carbs, clean up the disaster of a kitchen from the dinner I tried to make while watching 4 children who need to do homework, pee in the potty, play with outlets and chemicals and eat cat food, lets just throw in a few whines, breaking up an argument,  tupperware unloaded from the cupboard,  3 different dietary needs and doing a math equation to count all the carbs Norah eats so I can medicate her properly.  Ahhh the Joys!  I'm living a life of dreams :O)

And then after bathing, nursing, braiding hair, reading books, brushing teeth and going potty I'm usually in the kitchen baking for Norah and setting up to survive the next day.


And then I crash............ or cry, or stare at a wall

I'm glad he is doing it though.  As much as I hate not having him around much right now, I couldn't be more proud that he is doing this.  There have been many times where quitting would be so much easier for both of us, for all of us, but not in the long run.

 There are moments where I get so lost in the stress of now it is so hard for me to see the end, it is so blurry and my days are long and hard.  It's such a mental battle of knowing there is an end in sight but surviving and struggling through the days I face now.

Tomorrow he takes his 3rd exam, he has already passed 2!  And after this exam he will have a few weeks break and then off to study intensely for 6 weeks for his final exam (as long as he passes #3).  

I mean it's all worth it in the end right.  They get this guy for a dad :O)

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Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Levi Paul {11 months]



Can we just sit back and all shed a few tears..... this will be my last monthly baby post, most likely ever,!
(some of you might be excited about that though!)

Levi is 11 months, this is it folks.  The time has come to end this baby journey in our family, it is bitter sweet in a million ways  (although, who knows what God will do in our lives).

Levi, my little peanut, you only weight a whopping 16 lbs at 11 months old.  You have stayed on your growth curve, so the Dr is not really worried, but she said she wouldn't mind if I fed you butter and coconut oil :O)

I am amazed that I have nursed you this entire time, although I'm not that amazed since you won't drink form ANYTHING else, no bottle, no cup, no straw.  
If I try to give you a cup you just throw it at me........yep

You are completely relentless.  That is your word my Levi, "Relentless."  My goodness I don't know what to do with you!  You go up the stairs, play in the toilet, eat cat food, put legos in your mouth,  eat rocks, play with the door stopper, and do anything that is basically dangerous and naughty.   I seriously can't leave you for more than 30 seconds or it's trouble and now your big sisters are in school I don't have my constant Alarm, "Mommy, Levi's playing in the toilet again!"  
And even if I close all of the toilet lids, you start playing with the toilet bowl brush, which is like A MILLION TIMES WORSE!  Oh my word, you are not phased when I tell you No, or try to distract you, or squeeze your hand, you just keep going back, you are just so relentless and so fast too! 

on your way to do something naughty
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and you found it.....
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I'm hoping the Lord will someday use this trait in you, being relentless, the one thing that seems so difficult right now, maybe you will use later in your life, to never give up and to keep going for your dreams, but for now could you just be a little less relentless on the naughty stuff?

And Levi, I don't think you have ever been interested in baby toys, you just totally bypassed that and started playing/destroying your sisters pet shops.

You are still my #1 cuddler and mama's boy though.  
You cuddle me like no other child has, you snuggle against me, hug me, and give me open mouth kisses.  
I love your affection. And I love that you love me so much.

but seriously you aren't a baby anymore, just look at these photos
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 My secret helper for every monthly photo, seriously this girl can make him laugh and smile like no one else!
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 Although you are almost not a baby, you will always be my baby (do do do, uh, do do do ti do ti uh)
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